The sun is shining, it’s gorgeous outside! Yet within, my soul is sad. I awoke this morning in a place of physical pain and feeling tired. My emotions were all over the place. Feeling alone, forgotten and unwanted.
Feelings. We can’t always trust them. We can’t always live them out as if they were true. So often they lie to us.
The reality is I am tired, actually it’s more like exhausted. I haven’t been to the doctor but all the sign are there, I am iron deficient. I’ve been here before, many times, so give me a few days of iron pills and raw green smoothies and it will be better. But being this tired doesn’t help with the emotional feelings. Yet, it does help in knowing I need to fight all that much hard to believe and focus on what I know is true.
You see, when we are physically exhausted, and/or in pain, it effects our ability to fight the spiritual and emotional. Coming to the place of recognizing that is huge. I haven’t always understood the importance of what is going on in the physical body and how it effects the other…but that would take another blog post.
How do I fight though when everything in me wants to unplug my phone, stay away from people and to go to bed? God is my only hope. He is the only one I can believe and trust. Today He spoke the words of Psalms 34 to me. The words are beautiful, refreshing to my soul.
I will bless the LORD at all times; His praise shall continually be in my mouth. My soul will make its boast in the LORD; The humble will hear it and rejoice. O magnify the LORD with me, And let us exalt His name together.
I will bless You! Regardless of how I feel or what is going on in my life I will boast in You. I will praise Your name!
I sought the LORD, and He answered me, And delivered me from all my fears. They looked to Him and were radiant, And their faces will never be ashamed. This poor man cried, and the LORD heard him And saved him out of all his troubles. The angel of the LORD encamps around those who fear Him, And rescues them.
Thank you for answering my hearts cry. You will deliver me from my fears, You will save me from myself and the lies that my emotions speak.
O taste and see that the LORD is good; How blessed is the man who takes refuge in Him! O fear the LORD, you His saints; For to those who fear Him there is no want. The young lions do lack and suffer hunger; But they who seek the LORD shall not be in want of any good thing.
Oh YES! You are good, You are the one I can take refuge in! I will seek You in this place of exhaustion and focus on Your goodness to me!
Come, you children, listen to me; I will teach you the fear of the LORD. Who is the man who desires life And loves length of days that he may see good? Keep your tongue from evil And your lips from speaking deceit. Depart from evil and do good; Seek peace and pursue it.
Teach me Lord. Teach me to see Your goodness in all of life. Help me to see as You see. Teach me to discern between evil and good so that I might choose to do good.
The eyes of the LORD are toward the righteous And His ears are open to their cry.The face of the LORD is against evildoers, To cut off the memory of them from the earth. The righteous cry, and the LORD hears And delivers them out of all their troubles. The LORD is near to the broken hearted And saves those who are crushed in spirit.
Oh Lord, I know You see me. I know You hear me. Thank you for Your faithfulness in drawing near to me on days like today. Thank you that You do not abandon me when I am down. I am so grateful for Your presence in my life!
Many are the afflictions of the righteous, But the LORD delivers him out of them all. He keeps all his bones, Not one of them is broken. Evil shall slay the wicked, And those who hate the righteous will be condemned. The LORD redeems the soul of His servants, And none of those who take refuge in Him will be condemned.
Lord I am reminded that all over the world Your children are facing life and death trials. They are being beaten, broken and killed for Your name’s sake. No matter what happens here on this earth to our bodies, no matter how bad it gets, or how bad we might feel, You will deliver us. You HAVE delivered us! You have redeems us and no matter what happens to our bodies our souls can take refuge in You.
We can have joy everlasting in all circumstances knowing that our soul has been redeemed and one day soon we will be with You forever. Amen.