If you are currently struggling with a prodigal child, or what I like to call a spiritual wanderer, then my dear sister know that I understand how difficult it can be.
No one, nothing, prepares a mother’s heart if your child decides to follow his own way instead of Gods.
You feel as if no one understands. It’s where the enemy wants you. If the enemy can get you to isolate yourself, believe the lies he whispers in your mind, then he may be able to convince you there is no hope.
In Christ there is always hope-there is always victory.
Be brave my dear sisters and be willing to take a risk to seek out other sisters who can help you walk through this in truth. I say take the risk because -It is a risk. There will be those who do not understand, who will judge. But there will also be those who will put their arms around you, pray with you, speak truth and just love you through it.
I want to encourage you to go to God. I fully understand that during this time you might want to stay away because of the pain, the guilt and the shame you feel.
Beloved sister, please know it is the enemy. God understands your pain, He knows the hurt you feel for your child.
I've been reading in Ezekial about a Father who is angry over the sin of His children. They have turned away from Him and have chosen wickedness and continual evil. As I read these chapters (especially 4-6) I got a real sense of God's broken heart over the sins of His children.
There have been warnings. There have been opportunities for them to turn from their sinful behavior, but they choose sin. Chapter 5: 13 says that His wrath will be appeased. He will withdraw from them, He will have no pity.
Then in chapter 6:8 God says "however, I will leave a remnant". Isn't that just like God? He always gives mercy, hope and a way for His children to repent! But what struck my heart the most was in Chapter 6 verse 9 it says "I have been hurt by their adulterous hearts."
I don't believe that this is the hurt of an angry righteous God, but the hurt of a Father who loves His children.
A Father who grieves over the sinful choices of His children.
A Father who sees that His children are choosing other things over Him.
So beloved, I know God understands the heart of a mother when she grieves over the sinful choices of her children.
So go to Him...allow him to hold you in His arms and comfort you with singing (Zep 3:17) Take refuge in the shelter of His wings. (PS 61:4)
During my season of heartbreak over my children...I spent ALOT of time in the Psalms.
It was a soothing ointment for my breaking heart. My prayer is that you to will find comfort.
My eyes are continually toward the LORD, For He will pluck my feet out of the net. Turn to me and be gracious to me, For I am lonely and afflicted. The troubles of my heart are enlarged; Bring me out of my distresses. Look upon my affliction and my trouble, And forgive all my sins... Guard my soul and deliver me; Do not let me be ashamed, for I take refuge in You. Let integrity and uprightness preserve me, For I wait for You.
The LORD redeems the soul of His servants, And none of those who take refuge in Him will be condemned.
Beloved sisters, there can be joy in this time of deep pain. Go before God, cry out to Him...allow Him to teach you how to walk through this with joy and a peace that only comes from His Spirit dwelling in and through you. And go to a sister who will understand, who will pray with you and encourage you through.
But what about my child you say? They are in the hands of God the Father. They must make the journey to God, you must pray.
I love you....I am praying for you.
updated post of original post 6/7/07 titled A Hurt God Understands.