I wrote this a few months ago as I realized that I was not going into remission. My almost 4 year battle with Hypothyroidism, due to Graves Disease will soon result in a thyroid removal. Sometimes healing doesn’t come as we desire. And though I know God could cause me to go into remission or healing me completely so Graves is gone, He hasn’t chosen too. I don’t know why, but I do know He loves me and that His purposes for my life are good.
Oh Lord how long will I struggle?
How long will my body work against me?
Do you see me fight the darkness.
Where are You?
I pray for healing but it does not come.
Why are you silent?
O Lord I need you!
I need to feel Your Spirit within me.
I need to know you are with me
Even if healing never comes.
Free me from this life!
Show me how to live with pain yet joy.
Lord God, I know you are good.
I know your purposes are true and holy.
You have everything in your hands.
You rule the nations and keep all things together.
I know you keep me too.
Your purposes are beyond my understanding.
Your ways are higher than mine.
I want to be in Your will.
I will be content in whatever You do.
Father I pray for healing,
Yet Your will be done.