For months now I have been waking up thinking, “ugh, another day. Lord when will you take me HOME!” I’ve prayed to my God “Please just let me go home! I am tired and I really don’t see the purpose of my life anymore.”
Wrong thinking.
So here I have sat, feeling discouraged, unusable and basically having one big pity party, focusing on SELF! Of course the enemy has had a field day with thoughts like “You are just useless!” “there are others who have so much more to offer than you, they don’t really need you!” “you are the ONLY one who ever feels this way” and on it goes…
Recently I made a comment to a dear friend of mine (who ALWAYS speaks truth) I said to him, “I’ve been praying that God would just take me home, I am so tired of this life!” I actually don’t remember exactly what he said to me, but basically it was “You know, that’s a pretty selfish prayer, you don’t see any of the disciples praying that way.” I laughed it off and we went on our way.
Then today, as I was walking (it’s amazing how God uses this time to speak to me!) and his comment came to mind. “So what was I really saying to God?” Praying that prayer was pretty much telling God I wasn’t satisfied with where HE has me. My thinking was very selfish and VERY prideful. My thinking was TOTALLY wrong. It did not honor God at all. It was time to get my mind lined up with God’s truth.
Instead of waking up thinking “ugh” what if I woke up thinking “ Hallelujah I get another day?”
Another Day!
Another Day to serve my God. Another day to serve my family, to love on them and share Christ with them. Another day to just worship my GOD! To stand in His presence and be obedient. Another day to allow Him to teach and mold me. Wouldn’t that be a better way of thinking? After all it really isn’t about me. It’s about God. It’s about what I can do for Him.
All of a sudden my step is feeling a little lighter. I am not so worried about tomorrow. It doesn’t matter what God may or may not have for me.
I am going to focus on today. I don’t know what God has for me. I don’t know when or how He might use me. I don’t know anything, I only know God, His word and that HE has created me for a purpose and NOTHING can stop Him from the plans HE has for my life.
I do know, that for today I can serve, love and encourage. Today will be the day I will look and pray for opportunities to serve, to smile, to love and to share the light of Christ.
Today the party is over, the pity party that is, and I get another day to bring glory to HIS name, to PRAISE, SING and LAUGH all because of HIM.
As I wrote this the song “Another Day” by Natalie Grant came to mind.
Another chance to love the ones I love
To find my way
To laugh, to dance
And watch the sun come up
Another day I get to live
As if every breath could be the last I take
I get another day
To find my way
To laugh, to dance
And watch the sun come up
Another day I get to live
As if every breath could be the last I take
I get another day
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