A Time to Just CRY!
You see, in the past I realized that crying doesn't fix anything. You can cry all you want and people still die, they still leave, and they will still move away. You can cry but you are still going to be in pain from abuse, betrayal or suffering. So somewhere along the way I decided it just wasn't worth it and I had cried too many tears anyway.
But I am reminded in Ecclesiastes 3:4 that there is a time to weep and a time to mourn. And unfortunately we don't always get to choose when the feelings of grief will overcome us. For example today, something happened that caused me to begin to cry for someone I love and in crying for her I realized that I was also crying for my own loss. Our circumstances were/are different but God used that to allow me to grieve once again for a Father I did not know.
This was not a bad place to be. I did not stay there. I truly am beginning to belief that until we learn to embrace those times that grief comes there will not be full healing. Jesus said "Blessed are those who mourn, for they shall be comforted." Matthew 5:4
So God has been teaching me to mourn. To allow the flood gates open up, to cry, weep, and wail. God has been showing me that I can mourn without falling apart. For when I allow myself to mourn it is then that God brings comfort and healing.
You have taken account of my wanderings ; Put my tears in Your bottle. Are they not in Your book ? Ps 56:8
How precious is that my dear sisters! He collects my tears in HIS bottle!