My Daughter in law gave me this clock as a Valentine's Day gift. I got it today. I needed this now, I did not need it on Feb 14th. God knows what we need when we need it.
The verse on the clock says "God has made everything beautiful in it's time" (Ecc 3:11 The Message). I stopped and looked at that verse and I felt hugged by God as He reminded me that He has made me beautiful. He has changed my heart.
I sat in a bed last night waiting to be wired up for a sleep study test reading my journal. This journal was started in 2003 and I must admit it hasn't been written in very often since beginning my blog, but as I read through it tears began running down my face as I realized all God has done.
What I realized is that God had heard the cries of my heart in 2003 when I prayed to KNOW Him MORE. He heard my heart breaking when I cried out to Him to fill me with ALL of Him because I felt so empty. God took a heart that was empty, alone and ugly and made it beautiful.
You see, I had grown tired of being content with a mediocre Christian life. There had to be more and I wanted it. I felt I was still missing apart of God and I desired to know what that was. I was being fed the Word of God, but I wanted to know how to feed myself!
God heard my cries and He has MADE me beautiful.
The rest of that verse says in the NLT "He has planted eternity in the human heart, but even so, people cannot see the whole scope of God's work from beginning to end."
As I was writing in my journal in 2003-2005 it seemed that over and over the cries were the same. Crying out for God, to KNOW His heart, to KNOW Him. At the time I did not understand why it seemed He did not hear me. The fact is He did hear and He was working. But it was in His time and He could see a future that I did not understand.
I needed the reminder today that God has made me beautiful-even if I didn't feel beautiful today. The Truth is I AM beautiful for God has changed me from the inside out and while there are days (like today) that I can be ugly God continues to work in me to make me beautiful.
Thank you God for speaking to me today. Thank you dear Eni for being such a beautiful daughter in law.