It’s safe here, with Him.
There is no one here that will judge or criticize. Here, I know I am loved unconditionally, cherished, beloved, and I know that even when I am disciplined it’s out of love. Here within the safety of His hands I have such great peace and rest.
But out there, I have enemies.
My enemies are quick to judge what they think they know. They hear what they want to hear. I speak my heart and yet, somehow they make it appear ugly and leave me wondering if it would be better to say nothing at all. Why do they say they care only to take the words of my heart and betray?
It is safe here.
God has not called me to live safe though and now I sense Him urging me to go. He has given me a gift of this time. A time to seek Him. A time to heal. A time to seek His truth. A time to understand that it is God alone who sees my heart. He knows me. He SEES me and still loves me the same.
My confidence, what little I had to begin with, has been crushed. God used that to help me see that the only confidence I need is in His hands.
It’s in His hands that I am safe. I am protected. Cherished. Loved. Disciplined. He IS my confidence!
As I venture out, once again, I know He goes with me. I know that I am not alone. He is carrying me in the safety of His hands.
Oh Father my enemy is out there waiting to destroy me because I am Your child. Forgive me for forgetting that I am protected in You. Forgive me for forgetting Your promises of the Covenant. My enemies are your enemies and you will deal with them. Father thank You for loving me so much that You have disciplined me. You have brought me to a place where I can grow deeper in my understanding of You. Help me walk in a confidence that comes from You. Show me the path Your have chosen. Amen.
When you lie down, you will not be afraid; When you lie down, your sleep will be sweet. Do not be afraid of sudden fear Nor of the onslaught of the wicked when it comes; For the LORD will be your confidence And will keep your foot from being caught. Prov 3:23-25