The Reality is…

My soul clings to the dust; give me life according to your word! When I told of my ways, you answered me; teach me your statutes! Make me understand the way of your precepts, and I will meditate on your wondrous works. My soul melts away for sorrow; strengthen me according to your word! Put false ways far from me and graciously teach me your law! I have chosen the way of faithfulness; I set your rules before me. I cling to your testimonies, O LORD; let me not be put to shame! I will run in the way of your commandments when you enlarge my heart! Teach me, O LORD, the way of your statutes; and I will keep it to the end. Give me understanding, that I may keep your law and observe it with my whole heart. Lead me in the path of your commandments, for I delight in it. Psalms 119:25-35

 

I love this part of Psalms 119. In many ways it’s the cry of my heart right now. This very moment.

I want to cling to God so that every word that comes from my mouth is His. I want to live in a way that shows His faithful in my life. Oh how I want to follow Him in all I do and go in the path He has chosen.

But the reality is…

My flesh battles within me and I so often give in. I can get lazy and not spend time in the Word like I know I should. Like I need. I want to be faithful to my God but too often I am faithless. I chose my own way instead of His way. The reality is I still have a lot of growing to do. I still have much learning when it come to the things of God. There are moments in my life that are messy. I can become overwhelmed and fearful.

BUT GOD remains faithful. God remains the same. These things I desire He will work out in me. He is the one that teaches me, gives me understanding and helps me stay on the path of faithfulness. I delight in His Word because He places that desire in me. I am nothing without Him.

Thank you Father for your work in me, for the desires you place within my heart. Amen.