I woke up this morning with the word failure written all over me. It penetrated my thoughts and like an unwanted weed on steroids it grew quickly until the roots of the weed began to reach my heart.
A failure. Yes, that is who you are. Everything you have tried, everything you have done has failed.
You failed as a mother. You fail as a wife. You fail as a friend, as a leader, mentor and teacher.
Who do you think you are fooling EVERYONE knows you’re a failure. They all know that you can’t do anything right. Why do you think they are watching you so closely, not letting you get too involved? If you touch it, it will fail.
These thoughts and more grew at a rapid rate. Where did they come from? How could I just wake up thinking this way? What had caused it?
Why am I such a failure?
As that question ran through my mind and I grasped for an answer I quickly realized that my enemy had made a mistake in asking it.
At that moment I had a choice to make. Would I take the easy path and just allow the weed to grow? Or would I roll up my sleeves and do what was necessary to pull the thing up?
Too often I have chosen the easy road. It’s easy to just believe the lies, to allow them to grow and grow until the roots become stronghold around your heart.
Not this time. Not again, Not ever again. So I began the work of renewing my mind. Pulling up the lie, digging out the roots and planting truth.
God tells me in His word that before the foundations of the world He knew me and had a plan for me. God’s thoughts toward ME are precious and they out number the sand. (Ps 139) How could I be a failure if this was true – and I know it’s true for it is written.
His plans for me are for my good, for His good and His glory. I know that He can do all things, And that no purpose of His can be thwarted. (Job 42:2)
The truth is, I will accomplish that which God has intended for me to accomplish. I am His workmanship, created in Christ Jesus for good works, which God prepared beforehand so that I would walk in them. (Eph 2:10)
The TRUTH is I am HIS BELOVED. (Rom 9:25) I am not a failure.
Why do we sometimes wake up in the morning with lies blasting in our thoughts? The only answer I know is the enemy hopes to catch us off guard. Beloved don’t let him win it only takes a second to pull out your Sword and go to battle.
Oh Father sometimes I grow weary of this fleshly battle. This battle can FEEL lonely and tiresome, but You Father have promised that I am not alone in my battles with the flesh. You have not forgotten me or forsaken me. You fight the battle with me. I have the power of Your Spirit within me to fight. Remind me Father to not fight in my flesh but to fight with You by my side. Thank you for all that You continually reveal to me. Thank you for revealing the weakness of my flesh and the need of Your Spirit. Thank you for growing and refining my heart so that I now quickly pull the weeds before they really get started. Oh Father how I need you, I am unable to wage war on the flesh apart from You.