We are so afraid of others finding out who we really are. We fear that they will see that at times we can be weak and frail. That we struggle and that sometimes we are even "needy". Why do we feel that we must wear this mask of perfection? Maybe we think people don't care or are afraid they will think we aren't good christians. We feel so judged at times...so we hide.
"We become good a hiding. We hide behind our makeup. We hide behind our humor. We hide with angry silences and punishing withdrawls. We hide our truest selves and offer only what we believe is wanted, what is safe.We act in self-protected ways and refuse to offer what we truly see, believe, and know. We have spoken in the past and been met with blank stares and mocking guffaws. We will not do it again." (Eldredge)
I have to ask myself, what I have done to further this need of covering up? I too have a real tendency to hide, to try and protect myself against more hurt or possible judgement. But God has been calling me to be more transparent. God wants me to be honest, open and real. He wants me to be sensitive to the needs of others, to be available, trustworthy and most of all- to be a grace giver.
If I would become a grace giver to all those I meet would that not make others feel that they could be real with me? If I began to openly share my heart with those around me, regardless of what others thought, wouldn't those around me do the same?
Recently God keeps speaking the same message to me "be real and share your joy and struggles". "Tell them what great things I have done in your life".
One generation shall praise your works to another, and shall declare your mighty acts. They shall eagerly utter the memory of your abundant goodness, and will shout joyfully of your righteousness.
PS 145:4, 7 NASB
Father, help me to be a grace giver. Help me to willingly open up my heart and my life so that you alone might be glorified.