Once again I want to write a few words to my dear sisters who are struggling with prodigal children. Sometimes in the midst of the heartache and heartbreak, of watching your child continually make wrong or sinful decisions you can feel alone. You feel as if no one understands-the enemy wants you to feel that way. If the enemy can get you to isolate yourself, believe the lies he whispers in your mind then he will be able to convince you there is no hope. But in Christ there is always hope-there is always victory. Be brave my dear sisters and be willing to take a risk to seek out other sisters who can help you walk through this in truth. It is a risk, there will be those who do not understand, who will judge-but there will also be those who will put their arms around you, pray with you, speak truth and just love you.
But first and foremost I want to encourage you to go to God? I fully understand that during this time you might want to stay away because of the pain, the guilt and the shame you feel. But beloved sister it is the enemy. God understands your pain, He knows the hurt you feel for your child. I've been reading in Ezekial about a Father who is angry over the sin of His children. They have turned away from Him and have chosen wickedness and continual evil. As I read these chapters (especially 4-6) I got a real sense of God's broken heart over the sins of His children. There have been warnings. There have been opportunities for them to turn from their sinful behavior, but they choose sin. Chapter 5: 13 says that His wrath will be appeased. He will withdraw from them, He will have no pity.
Then in chapter 6:8 God says "however, I will leave a remnant". Isn't that just like God? He always gives mercy, hope and a way for His children to repent! But what struck my heart the most was in Chapter 6 verse 9 it says "I have been hurt by their adulterous hearts." I don't believe that this is the hurt of an angry righteous God, but the hurt of a Father who loves His children. A Father who grieves over the sinful choices of His children. A Father who sees that His children are choosing other things over Him.
So beloved, God understands the heart of a mother when she grieves over the sinful choices of her children. So go to Him...allow him to hold you in His arms and comfort you with singing (Zep 3:17) Take refuge in the shelter of His wings. (PS 61:4)
Here are some verses that brought great comfort to me during this time...I spent ALOT of time in the Psalms...it was a soothing ointment for my breaking heart.
You will make known to me the path of life; In Your presence is fullness of joy; In Your right hand there are pleasures forever.
"I love You, O LORD, my strength." The LORD is my rock and my fortress and my deliverer, My God, my rock, in whom I take refuge; My shield and the horn of my salvation, my stronghold. I call upon the LORD, who is worthy to be praised, And I am saved...
Let the words of my mouth and the meditation of my heart Be acceptable in Your sight, O LORD, my rock and my Redeemer.
My eyes are continually toward the LORD, For He will pluck my feet out of the net. Turn to me and be gracious to me, For I am lonely and afflicted. The troubles of my heart are enlarged; Bring me out of my distresses. Look upon my affliction and my trouble, And forgive all my sins... Guard my soul and deliver me; Do not let me be ashamed, for I take refuge in You. Let integrity and uprightness preserve me, For I wait for You.
The LORD redeems the soul of His servants, And none of those who take refuge in Him will be condemned
Beloved sisters, there can be joy in this time of deep pain. Go before God, cry out to Him...allow Him to teach you how to walk through this with joy and a peace that only comes from His Spirit dwelling in and through you. And go to a sister who will understand, who will pray with you and encourage you through.
I love you....I am praying for you.