Recently while in this place of not really being in the word as I should I memorized Hebrews 4:12 for a class I am taking which says, “For the word of God is living and active and sharper than any two-edged sword, and piercing as far as the division of soul and spirit, of both joints and marrow, and able to judge the thoughts and intentions of the heart.” It was during the memorizing of this verse that the Spirit began tugging at my heart. I couldn’t grab ahold of it right a way but over time truth began to penetrate my heart. The truth is that God’s word does not, can not, leave me as I am. His Word is alive and therefore in the reading, studying, meditating and applying it to my life it changes me. And that change is often painful, it cuts deep into the desires of self and exposes my sinfulness.