I am a Mess, but I am Not Falling Apart

I get discouraged.
I get angry. A mess
I get frustrated.
I have moments of envy and jealousy.
I sometimes speak before thinking.
I can be judgmental, critical and a bit too sarcastic.
I can think too much of myself.
I am often a mess emotionally.
I struggle with my what my flesh wants.

But, I have not lost my faith.
I am not falling apart.

My world may seem out of control.
I have doubts.
I say the wrong things.
I have a lot of questions.
And very few answers.
I do not have “it all together.”
You may not understand me.
You may not even like me.
You may have given up on me.

I have not lost my faith.
I am not falling apart.

I know that...
God is real.
He is who He says He is.
The Bible is true.
Jesus died for me.
He is full of love and grace.
He never changes.
His Spirit is at work in me.
I learn to surrender more each day.
To rest in His presence.
To be obedient to His will.
I am His beloved child.
He will never leave or forsake me.
I am learning to walk in His grace.

This is why, in the midst of pain, sorrow and the messiness of life I have not lost faith.
This is why, I when fail or fall, I do not fall completely apart.

"For I am the LORD your God, who upholds your right hand, Who says to you, 'Do not fear, I will help you.'” Is 41:13


  1. I love this! I've just come from the funeral home for the visitation of my dear aunt. My uncle (they were married for 60 years) said something similar - "I am sad, but I have joy. I'll be ok, because I have my Lord.

  2. Exactly Mari! Thank you so much for sharing that. So sorry to hear about your Aunt, 60 years is a long time, I am sure it will be hard for him to adjust without her. My father in law lost his wife in the fall after 55 years of marriage and while he is doing okay, for he knows the Lord and is resting in Him, it often talks of the loneliness and difficulty of living the day to day with out her. Saying a pray for your Uncle today!


Leave me some joy...