Today has been one of those days that that I feel sad, sort of a soul sadness. My flesh could easily turn this into pity party, or draw it out for a few days. My flesh so easily turns within and once it looks inward my thoughts often go down the drain.
It’s just that I am tired. I am weary today of fighting the pain in my body that wars against me. I am tired of the constant reminder that my body is dying daily. I mean seriously! Our bodies do grow old daily, but why can’t my body do it quietly? Unnoticed. :-)
I do have a choice though. Not in whether or not I have daily pain but in how I will respond. The fact is I have chronic pain. There’s not much I can do about it. So what are my choices of response? Give in to it, give up and just go to bed and have one big ole pity party! I do love a good party! But pity parties just aren’t all that fun. Besides people usually don’t like them very much and I end up partying alone!
What I will choose to do is accept the day as it is, a bad pain day. I will choose to rejoice in my God. I will rest in the knowledge that He holds me safely in His arms and He rejoices over me.
I also chose to take a nap…which helped a lot!
And then God gave me these verses…
O God, listen to my cry! Hear my prayer! From the ends of the earth, I will cry to you for help, for my heart is overwhelmed. Lead me to the towering rock of safety, for you are my safe refuge, a fortress where my enemies cannot reach me. Let me live forever in your sanctuary, safe beneath the shelter of your wings. Ps 61:1-4
I love the reminder that He is my towering rock of safety, He is my refuge, and my fortress. I will live FOREVER in His sanctuary. I am safe beneath the shelter of His wings.
Dear sisters where ever you find yourself today remember that we have a safe place to run. A place of safety where we can cry out to our Father. He is available to us in the midst of our painful moments. Whether it’s physical or emotional pain He sees and He is there.
I am so thankful that my God can take a sad day, a painful day, and give me joy in Him. You are so amazing God. I am grateful for WHO You are and all that You do for me.
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