Only God Could Know!

I remember precious moments of rocking, kissing cheeks, cuddling, singing, praying, and just watching you growing, explore and learn.

Who knew that you would touch my heart they way you did? Who knew that a heart could be filled with so much love?

I never imagined that one so tiny could change the heart of a young woman and give her the heart of a mother.

I never knew you would come into my life and change my world?

Even now as I think back over the years and I can’t help but be so very thankful for the gift of you.

Every moment I have as your mother has such precious memories. I wouldn’t trade a single one of them, not even the hard moments.

Moments forever pictured in my heart. Moments of laughter and silliness. Moments of watching you play and grow. My heart is filled with so many tender moments of just loving you…and…you loving me.

There were moments of sorrow and pain. Times of struggling between the our wills. But there was always love, always forgiveness, always grace.

We learned through the hard times and it made us stronger. It made us who we are today.

I made mistakes, a lot of mistakes, sometimes making me feel that I had totally failed at being your mother. You were always so forgiving, so understanding when I came to you and told you how sorry I was. I learned that God’s grace was sufficient for those moment of “felt” failure.

You may not know it, but you helped me to grow up. You taught me so many things. I learned patience, perseverance and most of all, you taught me about love.

There are not words enough to share the love that is in my heart for you even now, though you are adult men you can still bring such joy to my heart.

Who knew that my precious little boys would grow up to be such wonderful young men? Men who still love their momma!

Oh and boys you were! You both were all boy! Running, wrestling, playing Cowboys and Indians, bringing home snakes, climbing up trees, scrapped knees and elbows, broken bones, stitches, running into deer with cars, camping, hiking, bikes, basketball, soccer, track, oh and lets not forget the mud and dirt, running in the creek, falling into a frozen pond and those loud unexpected noises!

Such memories, so precious to a mother’s heart.

Now you are men with homes of your own, with precious family and I am so proud of you.

My heart is still filled with such love and wonder as I watch the young men you are growing into.

Who knew that a young girl with so little to give, could learn to love with such a great love?

Who knew? God of course! He knew that by placing two precious little boys into my arms I would grow, learn and love with a heart that is full. God knew that as my love and understanding of being a mother grew my understanding of God would grow.

I am so thankful for you both. I will love you forever and always.

May God be glorified for the work He has done not only in the heart of this mother but what he continues to do in her heart and the heart of her sons.

Adam David your name means “first born, beloved” and you are my beloved first born. I see in your heart such love and compassion. Always remember that you are very much loved. You are loved not only by your mother and father but you are very much loved by God. You are so very precious to Him and He calls you His beloved son. Thank you for bringing into the mother’s life three precious grandchildren to love and hold. Thank you for giving me a beautiful daughter-in-love, who is an amazing mother to her children.

Joshua Mark your name means “Jehovah is salvation, defender” and you are a defender of those less fortunate, you have compassion for the hurting. Always remember that you are very much loved. Jesus is your salvation and He is your defender. You are so very precious to me and to God. Never forget that God calls you HIS and you are beloved of God. Thank you for giving me another daughter-in-love who is so precious and beautiful. Watching the two of you begin your lives together just warms my heart as I see the love you have for one another.

THANK YOU God for entrusting these two precious boys into my heart. I am forever grateful. Forever changed.

 

(This is an edited post from last year but wanted to repost this year.)