I have failed over and over to be the woman I want to be. I have made poor choices, trusted the wrong people and followed the wrong crowd. I have been stubborn and have wandered off thinking I knew a better way. I have worshipped other things and people, committing spiritual adultery. I have been angry, jealous, prideful, and hurtful. I have lied. My thoughts have been impure. I have gossiped, been judgmental, and critical.
Apart from Christ I most likely would be on the street, a prostitute, a junkie and homeless. I would be lost, alone, afraid and have no reason to live.
Does that sound harsh? Am I painting a worse picture than my reality warrants? I, better than anyone, understand where I have been, what I have been and the possibilities of where I could have ended up.
My enemy takes such joy to remind me too!
He loves to walk me down the lane called “remember who you were”. He loves to try and convince me it’s still who I am. Oh and when I blow it, when I forget, when I slip and fall he rejoices! He does the “victory dance”.
Far too often in the past I have watched him dance all over me and I have believed his lies. He is good at seducing my flesh and reminding me of what I was.
I have been weak. When we are spiritually weak we are easy prey. Too often I have walked around like a sick, injured little lamb forgetting where I am and whose I am.
Do you know what I have learned? Do you know what I now understand? It doesn’t matter where I have been or even who I am today. It’s really not about me at all!
All that matters is who HE IS. All that matters is that HE lives in me! HIS Spirit is in me. I NO LONGER have a heart of stone but I have a heart of FLESH! (Jer 32:40)
My enemy has NO power over me. Do you understand what I just wrote? OUR enemy has NO POWER over us if we have Christ Spirit living in us.
As a believer I DO NOT have to be easy prey. I CAN have VICTORY over my flesh!
How do I know? Because this who lives IN me…
El Elyon the Most High. He is the sovereign ruler of all the universe.
El Roi, the God who sees. He is everywhere. He doesn’t sleep, He is always aware of all my circumstances.
El Shaddai, my all-sufficient One. He pours Himself out for me. He is sufficient. He is all I need.
My Jehovah-rapha, the God who heals me of my sin. I am healed completely and forever of my sin.
Jehovah-nissi, The Lord is my Banner. He gives victory over my enemy. He provides all I need to fight the battle of my flesh. Because of Jehovah-nissi I can have victory over my flesh, the world, and the devil.
Jehovah-Sabaoth, the Lord of host. He is the One who delivers and the One who judges. In His presence we have deliverance. We have safety. His name is a Strong tower, our stronghold. (Ps 47:7; Prov. 28:20)
Jehovah-tsidkenu, the Lord is our righteousness. This is among one of my favorite names because it tells me I can be right with God. No matter where I have been or what I have done I can have a right standing with my Creator. How? By receiving Jesus Christ as Lord. Because of Jesus and the new Covenant (His blood) God has given me a new heart. Jeremiah 31:33-34 says that God has written His law on my heart, He will forgive me of my sins and remember them no more. I am righteous through Christ.
The Lord God is my Shepherd, my Jehovah-raah who leads me in the path of righteousness, He restores me soul. (Ps 23)
Yes sometimes I forget WHO lives in us. I forget that HE promises to fight my enemy, watch over me, protect me, deliver me, heal me, sustain me and I forget He is enough!
BUT I am praying that I will no longer be EASY PREY to my enemy for while I may momentarily forget I now understand (at least better than I did) WHO lives in me and the victory I can have because of who HE is.
God Father I pray that I will daily remember that You are my Strong Tower. Help me to remember that You have given me a new heart and Your Spirit live in me. Oh Father I desire to live in the knowledge of WHO YOU ARE!