Honestly-my flesh wants to hurt back, to defend myself against false perceptions. I want to find every other person that has been influenced and help them to see the real me...to know my heart.
But God speaks to my heart...
Draw near to ME!
My readings this morning in 1 Samuel spoke to my heart...
David had the opportunity to kill Saul, but instead spares his life. Listen to what David says in Ch 24:5-12 " The Lord forbid that I should do such a thing to my master...or lift my hand against him; for he is the anointed...I have not wronged you, but you are hunting me down to take my life...may the Lord avenge the wrongs you have done to me, but my hand will not touch you." That took humility on the part of David. He understood God's rightful place to sit upon the throne!
My desire to hurt back comes from a prideful heart. I want to be judge! I want to be on the throne! Oh God FORGIVE me! My heart is grieved to think that even for a moment I might think that I know better than you! I willingly submit to your rightful place over me and those who conspire against me. Father I willingly lay down my prideful heart.
I willingly submit to your rightful place over me and those who conspire against me. Father I willingly lay down my prideful heart.
Romans 12:17-19 "Do not repay anyone evil for evil. Be careful to do what is right in the eyes of everybody.If it is possible, as far as it depends on you, live at peace with everyone. Do not take revenge, my friends, but leave room for God's wrath, for it is written: "It is mine to avenge; says the Lord"
Luke 6:35 "But love your enemies, do good to them..."
Over and over we are reminded to 'Love our neighbors'.In Romans 15:2 we are also told that "Each of us should please his neighbor for his good, to build him up."
I am reminded that I am to show love and forgiveness just as Christ has shown it for me. 1 John 4:21 says "And this commandment we have from Him, that the one who loves God should love his brother also."
Has someone hurt you today? Have they spoken against you? God calls us to walk in humility. Phil 2:3 "Do nothing from selfishness or empty conceit, but with humility of mind regard one another as more important than yourselves;" and Col 3:12 "...put on a heart of compassion, kindness, humility, gentleness and patience.:"
Oh Father so often I crawl upon the throne and want to be judge a jury ...forgive me Father! You alone are worthy to rule over my life. Forgive me for thinking so highly of myself.
at the foot of the cross.
It is there that I realize
the sinfulness of my heart.
It is there I realize
why you had to die.
It is there,
bowed before the cross,
that I realize that YOU alone are worthy
to sit upon the throne!