Somewhere deep inside my heart I often have heard the whisper that I’ll never be able to live a life that would please a
The sad thing about it all is that I’ve been trying desperately for many years to somehow earn God’s favor.
All the while knowing in my head that it was impossible,
I truly am incapable of pleasing God in and of myself.
There is no one good, not even one.
I would look at those around me and wonder "what am I missing?"
Did they understand something that I did not?
Why did it seem that they could live a life as conquerors and I always felt so defeated?
Why did it seem they were being blessed of God and I just struggled?
I don’t deserve God’s grace and couldn’t get past the knowledge of just how sinful I am.
You see- I’ve never had a problem seeing my sinfulness
but shame and guilt
overshadowed everything I’ve ever tried to do.
Why would God come to earth to rescue one such as me?
These and other questions have plagued most of my life.
What I didn’t realize until the last few years is that I have had very little understanding of the depth of God’s grace.
Grace is more than “unmerited favor”.
If I had truly understood grace I wouldn’t have felt that I could not ask God for forgiveness
or help because I had failed Him again and again.
I would have realized that God does forgive over and over.
His Forgiveness, His grace does not wear out.
I would have understood that grace covers all my inadequacies, all my failure, and all my sin.
I would have fully understood that I was trying to live the Christian life under the law, praying my works would somehow be good enough.
But they never were...
I did not understand the capacity of grace to cover all my sin,
and not just mine
but all mankind!
No matter how great the sin, how often I fail, grace abounds!
It is impossible for me to do or fail to do anything that can’t be covered by the grace of God.
Because of God’s AMAZING GRACE
I am not longer condemned and I no longer have to walk in defeat!
For years I could have repeated most of this to anyone, but in my heart I didn’t understand how I could walk in the freedom of God’s grace.
Somehow I missed the truth that God’s grace was meant for me.
I still don’t know if my mind can, or ever will, get completely around the depth of God’s grace.
But what I do know is that I have been saved by grace through faith,
it’s nothing I have done
or ever could do,
it is totally and freely a gift of God.
Where sin did abound, grace did much more abound!
That’s what God said and
I must take Him at His word and
walk it in!